I'm so mad at myself
It's barely been 2 days, literally DAYS, and I'm missing you this much. I was contempt, you helped prepare myself for it, for the long haul. I mean I still am, but I cant believe how much I miss you. Its different this time too, cause I know you're still there, so I dont have to be all edgy and whatnot. But it still doesn't make it any easier. I still miss you so so so much, but I'm just not as depressed about it like before.
I know you're doing your best so I cant be greedy, since this is the easiest way for you. I'll just hold on to this string that's connecting us as hard as I can and tough it out. I'm always here too in case things get too tough to handle alone.